What would you love to see happen in these 2 years?

I've been in this beautiful country now for almost 3 weeks. Really?! Wow, that realizatoin just hit me while writing this. I can't believe it has been 3 weeks already. In that time, I have done many new things: from cooking pankukas (crepes), lots of language, zip-line ropes course, seeing drifting cars, and the list goes on. In a world that is constantly changing and there are many things I need to adjust to, I am so thankful for a God who doesn't change and is patient with me through my changes in life. This update won't really be about what has happened here ministry wise, but more about what the Lord is teaching me. One of my friends asked me, what do you want to see in your 2 years here? What would you love to see happen while you're here? I had to think about it for a second. My first response was this: I would love to see young people give their hearts to the Lord and start a revival. Now this is a really good answer right? Well, I felt like it was a really "Jesus" answer. But it is true. I would love to see this happen. I believe in this future generation. I believe our God is bigger than any battle. I believe God can change these young peoples hearts and raise up leaders who will start a world wide revival. But as I thought about this question a little more, I felt in my heart I answered this question wrong. My deepest desire, the thing I long for the most out of these 2 years is a deeper more intimate relationship with the Lord. If He had to bring me all the way across the sea, remove me from my friends, and stick me in a new culutre to draw me closer to Him, GREAT! It will be more than worth it. In the last few weeks I feel like the Lord has already taught me so many things, but this is the biggest lesson I have learned. I, Alesha, have nothing, absolutely nothing to offer these people. Who I am in the flesh, has nothing to offer this city, this nation. But, and it's an important one, That is why I am a broken jar becuase it is not what I can offer, but it is what the Light offers. I was reminded of Gideon's army in Judges 7. It really is an incredible story. Here is Gideon who has this army. They are about to attack this Midianite camp but God says you have too many men. Their army was already smaller than the force there were up against. So Gideon listened and his army was now brought down to 300. Now the Lord calls Gideon and his army to carry nothing except a trumpet, a jar and a torch. As they go attack the camp, they sound the trumpets, break the jars and let the light shine. So what does this mean. You see all they needed was the Lord. They trusted the Lord to not lead them astray, they trusted that He knew the plans and the outcome. The trumpets were used to announce the Lord's presence and ultimately sent the Midianite camp into chaos. They broke the jars that were on the lit torches to represent that they are nothing but the Light was all that remained. Jesus was all that remained. God has been telling me this same thing. Ever since I heard a preaching over this passage, God has been working in my heart. It is not the size of the army that has come to Latvia or the team that is assembled here, because our God, our Commander, is in control. He will take care of His army. Also, I need to remain like the broken jar. Yes, a jar is clear, but if you but a jar over light, doesn't it make it dim? Doesn't it hold back the fullest potential a light can give? Therefore, my jar must be broken. My flesh must be broken so that God can shine His light to His fullest potential. I cannot get in the way of what the Lord wants to do. That is my prayer, my hearts cry. I want to get out of the way and let the Lord work. I want to continue to trust and believe that Jesus is ALL I NEED. I want to let my God, my beloved, pursue me every moment of every day. I want to be so in tune with His voice that when He whispers in my ear, go, I go. Or when He whispers, please just stay with me a little while longer, I stay and give my full attention to Him. I hope that at the end of these 2 years I am a changed person, my relationship with my Daddy is different, and that I have become more like Him. Would you pray with me about that? Thank you for your continued support and encouragement! It always brightens my day when I recieve a message or small post on facebook or email. :) Know that God is good! Not a day has been wasted here!!! Lai tev loti svetita diena! (Have a really blessed day!)