Forgiveness & Trust

"Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you."


How do you forgive someone for something that has caused you so much pain? This question has always haunted me. Most of my life I've dealt with trying to figure it out. But it wasn't until I started to see the pain and hurt I caused God that I started to see the answer. You see, I've made many stupid choices in life. I've said hurtful things, I made gestures, face, all that nonverbal language that has hurt many in the past. I've made choices that have put myself in harms way. I've basically neglected the Grace and Love God has given me. But the cool thing is this. Christ loves me anyway! God loves me anyway! He's never stopped. From the moment I was thought of, from the moment I was formed, the first breath in this world, through every mistake I've made, through every sorrow, every gladness, through EVERYTHING, EVERYDAY God loves me. He sent His Son, Jesus, to die on the cross for me! Jesus died on the cross for you! No matter what we do, God still loves us. God has, and God will always forgive us. 


So this brings me back to the first question, how do I forgive someone who caused me so much pain? Because I choose to allow Christ to work in my heart. It is by HIS power and His power alone that it happens. I don't want that person to have control over my life any more. I don't want to react on that memory or memories in a negative light. I want to move on. Truly moving on, only happens through forgiveness. It definitely is not easy. And nobody ever said it was going to be, they just told me I wouldn't have to do it alone. But the change in my life that has happened since this transformation started, has radically rocked my world! And the biggest thing that has come from forgiveness....TRUST! These past 2 weeks have filled my heart with trust. I trust God more now, than I've ever trusted anyone! I feel a peace, I feel content with the unknown of my future. But I rest in the trust that God is in control, Jesus is lighting my path, and when I seek Him, I cannot lose. He always has the victory! 


I'm excited to see where this new found trust takes me with my Jesus. These last 2 years have been unexpected adventure full of ups and downs, twists and turns, but man, I couldn't be more joyful and in love my Savior!